What can we do when demons from our past begin haunting us in our sleep? (Joe Techapanupreeda/Shutterstock)

Addicts and alcoholics often complain about using dreams, especially in early recovery. We drift off to sleep after another day of sobriety, only to find ourselves dreaming about drugs and alcohol. In the dream, we sometimes enjoy our use. Other times, it quickly turns into a nightmare as we commit heinous acts and suffer solemn remorse. At times, we even wake up feeling as if we really just used. This shakes us to our core, sometimes causing us to feel as if we are failing in our recovery.

We need not fear. Using dreams are not uncommon. Two researchers from the Centre for Research on Drugs and Health Behaviour in London studied more than one hundred addicts and discovered that 85% of those with more than six weeks of sobriety dreamed about drug use. This gives us solace in the fact that these dreams are a common occurrence. What gives us less confidence is the researchers’ follow-up after six months, which discovered that those with high rates of using dreams were more likely to have relapsed.

Don’t worry, however, as many of those who relapse simply don’t know how to handle their using dreams. According to the AA-approved handbook Living Sober, these dreams often prove harmless. What, then, do they mean? On this, the handbook refuses to comment:

“A.A. is not a program of dream interpretation, so we cannot point out the hidden meanings, if any, that such dreams have, as psychoanalysts and other dream interpreters do. We can report only that such dreams may occur, so don’t be too surprised. Among the most common is a dream that one finds oneself drunk, and horrified about it, but has no memory at all of taking a drink. We may even awaken with chills, shakes, and other classic hangover jitters—when, of course, we haven’t touched a drop in months. It was all just a bad dream. And it may come out of the blue, long, long after our last drink.”

Since many experience using dreams long past early recovery, they definitely don’t signify failure. Unfortunately, this still leaves open the question of what they do mean. To answer this, allow us to examine a few major theories on the psychology of dreaming itself.

Why We Have Using Dreams

Our using dreams often feel significant. But where do they originate? (chevu/Shutterstock)

We may experience using dreams for a number of different reasons. In Getting Started in AA, author Hamilton B. lists just a few of them:

“A drinking dream could be a warning. Or it could be wish fulfillment. It could be a helpful reminder of how much your sobriety means to you. Or it could be something else. Tell your sponsor about it and share the dream in your next AA meeting.”

Each of these possibilities carries equal weight. Because, unfortunately, dreams tend to present us with more questions than answers. We know that they spring largely from the subconscious. Aside from this, however, we know very little. Some people use their dreams to solve problems, such as the dream that helped chemist Dmitri Mendeleev develop the periodic table of elements. Others dream of issues that trouble them, such as a dream in which Winston Churchill’s father refused to acknowledge his son’s success. Then again, some dreams appear to mean nothing at all.

Dreams serve a wide variety of purposes, from threat simulation to memory enhancement. Going on the threat simulation theory, using dreams allow us to encounter our triggers in the dream world before tangling with them in our waking life. Then again, the activation-synthesis hypothesis proposed by Hobson and McCarley suggests that dreams simply help us understand our emotions better. Arianna Huffington addresses this hypothesis in The Sleep Revolution:

“According to this theory, the circuits in the brain stem activate when REM sleep begins. This in turn triggers activity in the limbic system of the brain, which is involved in a range of functions, including emotions, memories and behaviors. During waking hours, these brain structures help us register and understand our environment. But during sleep, the brain is reacting to internal signals, and without external stimuli for context, it turns to our emotions and memories to create meaning.”

In other words, dreams help us to better understand our subconscious. If we accept this theory, it follows that using dreams specifically help us to make sense of our addiction. When we dream about drugs and alcohol, we dive into the part of our brain that controls our addict behaviors. We see what makes us tick when our addict thoughts are left to govern themselves, free of outside influence.

This still leaves open the question of what, specifically, these using dreams tell us about ourselves. To answer this, we may look at two broad schools of thought regarding the nature of dreams. One stems from Freudian psychology, the other from Carl Jung.

Freud’s Theory on Dreaming

If only we could tap into the full contents of our minds, we could analyze our using dreams with greater ease. (Moon Light PhotoStudio/Shutterstock)

Sigmund Freud often focused on repression, and the theory he proposes in The Interpretation of Dreams follows a similar theme. In this theory, dreams represent subconscious thoughts that receive little expression in our waking life. Whether fears or desires, we often push certain thoughts out of our conscious mind. When we fall asleep, these thoughts then take the spotlight. But while these thoughts live primarily in the subconscious, they still take an important place in our overall frame of mind. Freud writes:

“The dream is a psychic act full of import; its motive power is invariably a wish craving fulfilment; the fact that it is unrecognizable as a wish, and its many peculiarities and absurdities, are due to the influence of the psychic censorship to which it has been subjected during its formation. Besides the necessity of evading the censorship, the following factors have played a part in its formation: first, a need for condensing the psychic material; second, regard for representability in sensory images; and third (though not constantly), regard for a rational and intelligible exterior of the dream-structure.”

Since this text will strike some as quite dense, allow us to elaborate. Our using dreams begin as a wish. Perhaps we doubt our sobriety and wish to relapse. Or perhaps we wish to stay sober but fear that we cannot. Either of these thoughts may disturb us enough for us to repress them, refusing to give them proper attention. The wish must therefore evade censorship by expressing itself in using dreams.

Why using dreams? Because they allow us to condense a larger wish, which in this case pertains to our overall lifestyle. The sensory images provided by using dreams allow for easy expression of the wish to use. Or they express the fear of relapse, if we wish to stay sober. Either way, these using dreams allow us to not only understand our addiction, but our recovery as well.

We’ll discuss the analysis of using dreams a bit below. First, however, allow us to take a look at Jung’s take on dreams and what they mean for our subconscious.

Jung’s Theory on Dreaming

The dream’s meaning is written into the subconscious of the dreamer. (nito/Shutterstock)

While Jung did not disagree with Freud’s interpretation, he believed dreams transcended the limits of repression alone. We find in Collected Works an essay on dreams, in which Jung states the following:

“Dreams may contain ineluctable truths, philosophical pronouncements, illusions, wild fantasies, memories, plans, anticipations, irrational experiences, even telepathic visions, and heaven knows what besides.”

From this view, we take away the same message as we took from Hamilton B. in Getting Started in AA—that dreams express a wide variety of purposes. Our using dreams might represent little more than illusions, carrying no meaning whatsoever. On the other hand, they might represent visions of our future.

Since Jung believed dreams served many purposes outside of repression, he did not take Freud’s stance on dream analysis. Rather than believing the key to dream interpretation lies in the forgetting, he believed many dreams spoke for themselves. If we recoil at our using dreams, we may take this as a good sign. But if we find ourselves responding to our using dreams with joy or nostalgia, this might indicate an oncoming relapse if we don’t adjust our attitude.

Many will inevitably find Jung’s take on dreaming a bit more accessible. It calls for little in the way of analysis, depending rather on intuition. Jung saw the dream as its own interpretation, as written in the Talmud. The dream represented not fear or desire alone, but instead a broader reflection of our collective unconscious. To buy a dream interpretation guidebook would be an act of folly, for to do so would be an attempt to separate the dream from the dreamer, as if the symbols in our dreams could have an objective meaning outside of what we give them.

American mystic Edgar Cayce, known as the Sleeping Prophet, believed that interpreting dreams in the Jungian manner helps us to better manage our waking life. When we interpret dreams based on how they make us feel, we may see reflections of relationship dynamics, opportunities that lie before us, problems that may pose danger in the near future, and the potential to expand our overall consciousness. He even believed that dreams reflected our physical bodies, which one may take as an indication that using dreams—the ones in early sobriety, at least—simply occur as the body begins to overcome post-acute withdrawal.

Dealing with Using Dreams

Don’t be afraid to dive into your subconscious and take an honest look at what you find there. Just don’t let it become an obsession. (pivettes/Shutterstock)

Both Freud and Jung believed that we could utilize our dreams to better understand ourselves. If we follow Freud’s theory on dream interpretation, we should focus on the details we find most memorable. When addressing the issues one encounters in trying to remember forgotten dream fragments, Freud writes:

“All the dream-content that has been lost by forgetting can often be recovered by analysis; in a number of cases, at all events, it is possible to discover from a single remaining fragment…the whole of the dream-thoughts.”

As we ruminate on our using dreams, we may remember bits and pieces we’d forgotten upon waking. When this happens, Freud believes that we should pay careful attention. If we believe his theory of psychic censorship, the dream fragments we repress most heavily sometimes hold the greatest meaning.

“This part of the dream that has been wrested from forgetfulness is always the most important part. It lies on the shortest path to the solution of the dream, and for that very reason it was most exposed to the resistance.”

We then look at these dream fragments and assess the fears or wishes expressed therein. Perhaps we’ll learn of a possible threat to our sobriety, a lingering trigger wreaking havoc on our subconscious yet almost entirely unnoticed in our waking life. Of course, we may follow Jung’s advice and base our interpretation on the feelings we associate with the dream rather than the symbols therein.

When we do this, we may actually find solace in the fact that our using dreams bother us. As written in Living Sober:

“Probably, it’s a good thing that we find ourselves shook up and miserable at the notion of drinking, even in a dream. Maybe this means we are really beginning to get the idea, deep down in our bones, that drinking is no good for us. Sobriety is better, even to dream about.”

In other words, we need not fret too much over our using dreams unless we find ourselves enjoying them. Even then, we need only take a look at this and adjust our attitude accordingly to ensure that we do not pine too much over our imagined use during our waking hours. If we obsess over our using dreams, we may begin to consider acting them out.

The best course of action is to simply tell our sponsors, share about our dream at a meeting or with a few friends, process our feelings and move on. If we identify changes that must be made in our waking life, we make them and continue about our business. Once we conclude our self-analysis and adjust our waking life if needed, we cannot do anything else. And let’s face it, life is too short for us to allow our dreams to intrude upon our waking hours. The moment we arise in the morning, we have other dreams to pursue. We’ll never reach them if we waste our time looking backward at our nocturnal visions.

You see the sun breaking over the horizon. Rise to meet it. You’ll have all night to play among the stars and interpret whatever messages they may bring. But the daytime is for living, and sobriety gives you a new opportunity to do just that. Don’t spend it stressing over illusory fears of things that didn’t really happen.

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